Clarifying a statement

The obvious is known
And yet I continue to be blind
Searching for thoughts that might have reason
Still clinging on
I can still feel you in my gut
Not wanting you there
I can still see you in my mind
Let me clarify
It’s an option that I am constantly debating
Blind to the fact that my debate is no longer questioned
But still searching for reasons unknown

But I can no longer have that as an option
My mind becomes lost
Trying to sort through memories
Trying to find reasons why
I wish I could clarify myself
I try to clarify the obvious
Clarifying why when I don’t even have a reason
No longer in denial
I see the obvious for now.