OnCe

once sleeping was the best thing i do :)
i put my head in the pillow...n thats it....
i sleep....
once....she used to call me "sleeping beauty"
while we talking....she could look at me after 1min of silence....
knowing that i would be a sleep....
in her arms
once....we were kissing....n i slept off....n she just held me tight...
n we both slept.
once....she asked me...how easy for u to drop into sleep eh?...
knowing the answer...she just smiled...
once....she called me...n said,lets just be friend....
once....i cried like i did only once in my life..
when i lost my father....
i cried memories.....bitterness.....regrets....
once.......i went to bed....i stayed up till morning.....
n i couldnt get my self into sleeping....
but Now....
NOW i know...i know why i cant sleep like i used...
Now i know...i know why i have to close my eyes tight....
trying to stop the words....
trying to just "shut it down"
Now......i long for that feeling...
sleeping in her arms....
OnCE AgAin